Saturday, October 20, 2007

My 16 year old daughter

Well gosh, what am I doing... I am really hitting a writing spurt. So for all of those that like to read my blog... let me see....
I guess by now everyone knows that I have two children. My oldest is 16. Wow, 16, what will I do. I am praying that I have given her enough life skills to master this big world. I do know that she is a very independent, very determined to have a good life. I think that I have instilled enough survival skills in here to get by when the times are rough. She knows how to be kind, and although she can be a little sarcastic, she is a pretty easy going kid.
If I may say so, she has turned out to be a rare jewel of a young woman. She is so beautiful, yet she doesn't know it. She has a fierce desire to protect her brother from all things. She has always been his shield, I hope that they stay close through their years. He looks up to her even though she is at an age where she can't see it. They love each other, and they will always have each others back. She is so kind and soft hearted and sometimes hides that under a somewhat rough exterior. But as I think about it maybe it will keep her strong when her heart is sad. I have told her all about God, so hopefully she will turn to Him, when the world seems to fall apart all at one time. I have told her that God is all around her, all the time, not just when you step into a church, that you may call on Him always. I also told her that I had learned that even if you are fearful of doing something, do it anyway, and God will see you through it. She knows that I am always here. I hope that she will be able to tell me anything. But if she can't then I will love her unconditionally and be there to pick up the pieces. I can only give her advice, but she will have to walk her own path in life.
She has a great head on her shoulders and I feel she will be going places, yet she doesn't want to go to far from home, and that will probably change, but that is okay too. Love knows no distance. I am so happy that she wants a future, and I hope that we will stay close, like me and my mother. My mother is one of my best friends, my sisters are too, even though we don't talk everyday, I know that if anything happened they would figure out how to get to me. It is crazy but I have always counted on them as my safety net. I am very lucky to have a loving family, in such a time when the world is so crazy. There is alot of people that don't have that kind of love and support. I know that they would always be there to get my back. I hope that my children will always feel that bond also. I want them to know I got there back too.
So as my daughter is 16, I can only thank God for letting me be a mother and have such wonderful children. I dedicate this to my daughter, my best buddy, my love, and my crazy kid.
May your road of life be wonderful.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Trip to the Dentist

Hey to everyone.. Just thought it was time that I share a life story with you... As I step up on my soap box...nahhhh...
A few weeks back, I went to the dentist, to get my two root canals. Now get you this, I just love the internet, you can research anything and everything. So be sure that I researched the "root canal"by the time I was finished I could imagine myself one big toothless mess, living under a rock, or the first ever case of "root canal" induced coma. Don’t worry I don’t ever need to hear anyone’s horror stories, I do really well scaring myself.
As I prepared myself mentally, I woke up to get dressed and ready for the day. I took a bath, shaved my legs, put on clean new undies (saved those for the days I go out), all in case I scare myself into a coma, and the ambulance had to drag me off to God forbid, Douglas General, (closest one around, and it is such a place!) I also bought, get you this, a bag of those women’ big old pads for peeing, just in case I got to gagging and I didn’t wet my pants, since I am such a good professional at that, ( dag having those kids, really messed me up). I am also if I forgot to mention a big time gagger! Can barely brush my teeth without hurling my insides out. Well enough of that let me continue. You know I share these things cause I find them to bring great joy to hear the outcome of my great little visits.
As I arrive at the office, come to find out, I needed ID, well of course I could have been the root canal patient incognito, come on now, who wants a root canal. Anyway, I couldn’t fill out the paper work, I went up to the desk, in front of everyone, and I said, please don’t turn me away cause I will never get the nerve up to come back.. Big mouth me... I should have ran while I had the chance. Nope, there was a nurse in the back that remembered me from a week ago, (yes, I called and had a lengthy conversation over my plight, and what a big chicken I was. More or less, spilled my guts, no mystery left to me.) I never learn that maybe I am a little TOO MUCH INFORMATION, kinda person.
So the nurse came running up and said, I vouch for her, let her come back. Oh yea, now I am a celebrity for the root canal team.. NOT....no where to run.. so I had to go.....
I was a nervous wreck, The doctor came at me with a Q-tip (yes, I am hanging my head while I write this) and I thought it was a needle. For those who know me, I hate them little buggers... Well now they know how much I hate them. Plus they knew my whole life before he even got the first shot in. I had to recap it all, nervous chatter, oh my I am such a mouth! Why God didn’t gift me with an off switch.
Any way they take a piece of rubber sheeting, and lay it over your mouth and kinda cut out where the teeth they are going to work on will be and then clamp it to the tooth, forming like a tent around the tooth, which was cool, cause nothing fell in your throat. Which triggers the gagging. Which in turn left me without wetting my pants ( a plus for the morning, go team!) Well I did really well, as he poked, prodded, numb, cleaned and fixed. This went on for an hour and ½. At some point at the end I felt like I had one of those gags with the rubber ball stuck in my mouth. It was really uncomfortable. But I made it through it all in one piece. And I am ready to do it again... I don’t think so, still gotta go back and get some pretty crowns. I feel so special....
On a serious note, you didn’t think I would forget to tell you what lesson I learned that day? Lesson learned this time...... I was so afraid, I prayed over and over for God to come to me and calm me. I searched my mind for prayers I remembered, I at one point was kinda getting ready to panic, because He wasn’t coming to me. Then I focused on remembering the crucifix that hangs in our church and suddenly I started to feel calmer and before I knew it, it was almost over. When the dentist finished he said, "Oh, I don’t think you need to have the other as a root canal, just a cavity, so on top of it all God let there only be one. As I humble myself to share this with everyone. I figured out that God is everywhere and yes at times he comes to you, but sometimes we forget to look inside ourselves, where God also lives, and that one of the most important things to remember is that we must sometimes be silent so that we may hear Him.
Well now that I have entertained you all, I feel much better, I guess I like sharing so that everyone can see that I am somewhat normal, just more verbal than some, but in the end God is in control in my life. And that I need to always remember that, I am never alone, He is always carrying me when I am such a big chicken.
Hope this entry finds all of you happy and healthy. Please always keep in touch. I will keep on adding some new entries. Gosh, I got lots of living to do, so I am sure I got lots of writing to do.
Catch everyone in a bit....

Monday, October 1, 2007

Crockpot Lasagne

Okay new recipe. Great results.
Crockpot Lasagne
I love this because it is as good as Stouffers without all the seasoning.
Ingredients
meat (I use probably only a lb. but you could use more) You could also switch up and add italian sausage meat with it. Makes a richer taste)
onions
garlic
1 container of ricotta cheese
1 small pk of motzerella cheese
2 cans of spagetti sauce
1 box of regular lasagne noodles.
Brown meat all together with onions, garlic. When done, drain, and then add the spagetti sauce. I also add the ricotta cheese (just cause I am frugal, and watching calories, and it goes farther)
pour in a layer of sauce in crockpot
then put in lasagne noodles (uncooked) I usually can get two long ones in and a few broken on the sides to cover the whole pot. Then I put more sauce and a bit of motzerella cheese ( I am also very frugal and calorie conscious with this one too.) Then noodles, continue till you have one last layer of noodles and just enough sauce to completely cover them. Then I put the rest of the motz cheese on top.
I set the crock pot on high (took about 3-4 hours) low took about 5-6
It is soooooo good. Please try it. You know you could pre-make the sauce and just freeze it in a ziploc, and put a bag of motzerella cheese in the freezer too, It would make for a meal idea for a hectic day.
Let me know how it goes if you make.
Have a Good Day!